This marriage was far from normal and extremely dysfunctional, I just didn’t know this then. I was constantly trying to figure out what was wrong with me, why did I make him so angry that he beat on me, why couldn’t I get Husband #1 to love me? Why wouldn’t he stop dealing drugs like he promised before our daughter was born, why wouldn’t he get a legal income and stop living off my welfare?
We rarely paid bills or rent. It became the NORM to start packing, usually in the middle of the night because we learned the amount of time following thePay Rent or Quit notice.