I was delusional to have convinced myself this baby would fix my life and my marriage. I was so naïve and impressionable that my absurd choices usually we’re followed by significant outcomes. Instead of understanding the history of my life, I chose to make similar decisions and continued anticipating a different solution. I understand now that this is a pattern of insanity. I recognize today that this was my life. Life came my way whether I wanted it to or not. My choices and how I handle life are what are essential.