Husband#1 is not overlooked. I believe he could be assessed as the prep for Husband#2. Tragic to say although it’s truth. When I met this Mr. Wondernot I was 18. I see my justifications now for latching onto the first man who paid any attention to me. All the dysfunctional childhood incidents left me very ignorant & confused as to how life should be. First it was Husband#1 with the verbal insults, and verbal abuse whenever he became dissatisfied with me. Things like hanging around too long at my friend’s house. Questioning him for the $ to pay the rent, electricity, gas for the car. These issues appeared to immediately set him off into a rage. At first Husband#1 did not physically harm me. He would call me awful names like C%§T, Bi+CH, Wh@£E. Scream at me “Who do I think I am wanting anything from him! I will beat your ass if you ever ask again!” This evolved to a day-to-day thing where he never called me by my REAL name. All the while shattering my self esteem. I would convince myself after rationalizing his destructive behavior, I must be doing something improper to provoke him to behave this way towards me. I had no knowledge this was the outset of him manipulating me, isolating me with his narcissism.

Husband#1

Husband#1 is not overlooked. I believe he could be assessed as the prep for Husband#2. Tragic to say although it’s truth. When I met this Mr. Wondernot I was 18. I see my justifications now for latching onto the first man who paid any attention to me. All the dysfunctional childhood incidents left me very ignorant & confused as to how life should be. First it was Husband#1 with the verbal insults, and verbal abuse whenever he became dissatisfied with me. Things like hanging around too long at my friend’s house. Questioning him for the $ to pay the rent, electricity, gas for the car. These issues appeared to immediately set him off into a rage. At first Husband#1 did not physically harm me. He would call me awful names like C%§T, Bi+CH, Wh@£E. Scream at me “Who do I think I am wanting anything from him! I will beat your ass if you ever ask again!” This evolved to a day-to-day thing where he never called me by my REAL name. All the while shattering my self esteem. I would convince myself after rationalizing his destructive behavior, I must be doing something improper to provoke him to behave this way towards me. I had no knowledge this was the outset of him manipulating me, isolating me with his narcissism.

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