My first marriage = Husband #1 seemed to be the precursor of marriages. I recall or FLASHBACK to moments and feel the intense and overwhelming HATRED…
WAITING FOR MY HERO
Category: Trauma
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MY RUPTURED BOUNDARIES…MY EXPOSED SOUL
I nevertheless labor through all I surrendered within myself for so many years. I know I must stop and acknowledge my behavior toward my cherished … MY RUPTURED BOUNDARIES…MY EXPOSED SOUL
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WAITING FOR MY HERO
My first marriage = Husband #1 seemed to be the precursor of marriages. I recall or FLASHBACK to moments and feel the intense and overwhelming HATRED I held inside of me. This HATRED formed slowly towards Husband #1. Being very young at twenty years old I was trying to make sense of the beatings and […]
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Husband#1
Husband#1 is not overlooked. I believe he could be assessed as the prep for Husband#2. Tragic to say although it’s truth. When I met this Mr. Wondernot I was 18. I see my justifications now for latching onto the first man who paid any attention to me. All the dysfunctional childhood incidents left me very […]
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DO YOU REMEMBER ME
That’s probably what you would do since you can’t face how much of a MONSTER you are. Throwing this letter out is the coward thing to do. I would not expect anything else from you. It’s ok because this letter is for me.I am a grown 31 year old woman. I am a woman that […]
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AM I JUST MISERABLE?
I never guessed about my ex-husbands’ remarks to me. Several times, each one declared while physically beating me, “I love fighting, and I’m just miserable.” My focus was always trying to get the beatings to stop. Today I challenge what my Triggers are in my marriage. Was I just exhausted and grumpy yesterday? I enjoyed […]
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Life Still Happens
I realize my life is very crazy with health issues and my immediate family.It’s just as sudden for me as well as for my new job.The past few monthsMy mom had a TIA, found a spot on her brain after CT, she’s falling prior to this.My Dad just let me know a couple of days […]
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Moments of Irrelevance
Even though my life today lacks nothing. I’m the one who lacks emotionally. Someone close to me may not react in a way I think they should. When I notice this an overwhelming dark existence smothers me. I end up feeling irrelevant. Trauma I deal with today that happened in my childhood or the chapters […]
AGAINST MY SOUL 