I nevertheless labor through all I surrendered within myself for so many years. I know I must stop and acknowledge my behavior toward my cherished …
MY RUPTURED BOUNDARIES…MY EXPOSED SOUL
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DO YOU REMEMBER ME
That’s probably what you would do since you can’t face how much of a MONSTER you are. Throwing this letter out is the coward thing to do. I would not expect anything else from you. It’s ok because this letter is for me.I am a grown 31 year old woman. I am a woman that […]
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AM I JUST MISERABLE?
I never guessed about my ex-husbands’ remarks to me. Several times, each one declared while physically beating me, “I love fighting, and I’m just miserable.” My focus was always trying to get the beatings to stop. Today I challenge what my Triggers are in my marriage. Was I just exhausted and grumpy yesterday? I enjoyed […]
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Life’s Transitioning when its your parents
I have robbed my parents of raising a decent child. This went on through my premature adulthood. I did not recognize how my prosecutions and aftermaths affected my parents and siblings throughout the numerous years I wasn’t existing. I define living in a sense as being late for holiday gatherings, is pleaded to borrow money, […]
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The Triggers
If I’d been asked in my early years if I believed people can be traumatized to various levels… Trauma that could impact a persons self identity, trauma that would be AGAINST MY SOUL; I’d said no. As with all things in life you really don’t know or understand anything until you have experienced it. Good […]
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Moments of Irrelevance
Even though my life today lacks nothing. I’m the one who lacks emotionally. Someone close to me may not react in a way I think they should. When I notice this an overwhelming dark existence smothers me. I end up feeling irrelevant. Trauma I deal with today that happened in my childhood or the chapters […]
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LIFE’s BRUTAL LESSONS
I remember the first time Husband #1 became infuriated. I raised a skepticism about him where he had been all day. “Why couldn’t you call me and let me comprehend what you were doing?” I told him, “ You are an asshole treating me like shit.” “It’s fucked up of you to disappear all day. […]
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I was delusional to have convinced myself this baby would fix my life and my marriage. I was so naïve and impressionable that my absurd choices usually we’re followed by significant outcomes. Instead of understanding the history of my life, I chose to make similar decisions and continued anticipating a different solution. I understand now […]
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MY ULTIMATE LEVEL TO LOVE
I ultimately abandoned #1 with the aid of my family and family friends. I went into labor because I hadn’t seen a doctor throughout my pregnancy, but once the nurses and docs had no idea who I was, if I was ok, etc.… I can think back to the labor pain of 36 hours like […]
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SICKNESS & SADNESS
I was familiar with what my actions would build in him and I could judge the gravity of the beating I would receive. Sickness and sadness. This time I made an effort to get away from him as we circled each other in the tiny apartment. When he snatched me I felt every punch over […]
AGAINST MY SOUL 