Tag: Domestic Violence Survival PTSD Narcissism insanity death
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WHAT’S IT LIKE…
https://domestic-violence-memior-blog.comIm sitting at the edge of my bed around 8 a.m. I just returned home from my night shift position of twelve hours. My darn foot suddenly fell ill almost by itself, not quite. It’s called EDEMA. I am transposing to another “old lady” part of my life. Anyways…it’s swollen and is painful. One more…
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IT ALL STARTS SOMEWHERE
Allow me to give some insight of my childhood and what I can remember. My father was in the Air Force for 20 years. Thirteen of those years I experienced all that comes with a dysfunctional Air Force family. My memories are vague and few. My family moved to Colorado Springs. I recall the fear…
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NO SURPRISES HERE
do remember the moment #2 told me he didn’t think he could have children. He said he was unable. At the time, I was still ignorant of a lot of issues in life as well as we never used protection. So I thought I had no reason to believe he would lie about that. Of…
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FOOTPRINTS 👣 OF MY TRAUMA
The years I endured living at Husband #2 parents home were never comfortable. I was always trying to be someone I was not. All in the sick efforts to keep Husband #2 and his abnormal family happy. If I didn’t I would pay for it. Things always ended up with me paying for it. He…
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MY RUPTURED BOUNDARIES…MY EXPOSED SOUL
I nevertheless labor through all I surrendered within myself for so many years. I know I must stop and acknowledge my behavior toward my cherished … MY RUPTURED BOUNDARIES…MY EXPOSED SOUL
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DO YOU REMEMBER ME
That’s probably what you would do since you can’t face how much of a MONSTER you are. Throwing this letter out is the coward thing to do. I would not expect anything else from you. It’s ok because this letter is for me.I am a grown 31 year old woman. I am a woman that…
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AM I JUST MISERABLE?
I never guessed about my ex-husbands’ remarks to me. Several times, each one declared while physically beating me, “I love fighting, and I’m just miserable.” My focus was always trying to get the beatings to stop. Today I challenge what my Triggers are in my marriage. Was I just exhausted and grumpy yesterday? I enjoyed…
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Life’s Transitioning when its your parents
I have robbed my parents of raising a decent child. This went on through my premature adulthood. I did not recognize how my prosecutions and aftermaths affected my parents and siblings throughout the numerous years I wasn’t existing. I define living in a sense as being late for holiday gatherings, is pleaded to borrow money,…
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Moments of Irrelevance
Even though my life today lacks nothing. I’m the one who lacks emotionally. Someone close to me may not react in a way I think they should. When I notice this an overwhelming dark existence smothers me. I end up feeling irrelevant. Trauma I deal with today that happened in my childhood or the chapters…
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CIRCUS OF THE COURTS
We were told there would be random drug tests. There was and neither one of us failed the test. Then we were sent to mediation. To talk about the best interest of our son. Everything that Husband #2 ever did to me obviously didn’t matter. Because nothing changed except we both had supervised visitation. …
AGAINST MY SOUL 