I nevertheless labor through all I surrendered within myself for so many years. I know I must stop and acknowledge my behavior toward my cherished …
MY RUPTURED BOUNDARIES…MY EXPOSED SOUL
Tag: Domestic Violence Survival PTSD Narcissism insanity death
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DO YOU REMEMBER ME
That’s probably what you would do since you can’t face how much of a MONSTER you are. Throwing this letter out is the coward thing to do. I would not expect anything else from you. It’s ok because this letter is for me.I am a grown 31 year old woman. I am a woman that […]
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AM I JUST MISERABLE?
I never guessed about my ex-husbands’ remarks to me. Several times, each one declared while physically beating me, “I love fighting, and I’m just miserable.” My focus was always trying to get the beatings to stop. Today I challenge what my Triggers are in my marriage. Was I just exhausted and grumpy yesterday? I enjoyed […]
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Life’s Transitioning when its your parents
I have robbed my parents of raising a decent child. This went on through my premature adulthood. I did not recognize how my prosecutions and aftermaths affected my parents and siblings throughout the numerous years I wasn’t existing. I define living in a sense as being late for holiday gatherings, is pleaded to borrow money, […]
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Moments of Irrelevance
Even though my life today lacks nothing. I’m the one who lacks emotionally. Someone close to me may not react in a way I think they should. When I notice this an overwhelming dark existence smothers me. I end up feeling irrelevant. Trauma I deal with today that happened in my childhood or the chapters […]
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CIRCUS OF THE COURTS
We were told there would be random drug tests. There was and neither one of us failed the test. Then we were sent to mediation. To talk about the best interest of our son. Everything that Husband #2 ever did to me obviously didn’t matter. Because nothing changed except we both had supervised visitation. […]
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THE LENGTHS OF ADDICTIONS
So drink the alcohol, you won’t have to feel the withdrawal yet. I consumed nothing in a normal manner. When this bottle was handed to me, I furiously gulped it down. Instantly, the alcohol began burning down my esophagus then I felt it enter my stomach. This is where the alcohol sat in its warmth […]
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DYSFUNCTION & UNDERSTANDING
I had not realized the behavior consumed me for years. I have guilt and trauma that has taken years of my life with flashbacks. It’s as if I’m living… DYSFUNCTION & UNDERSTANDING
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DYSFUNCTION & UNDERSTANDING
I had not realized the behavior consumed me for years. I have guilt and trauma that has taken years of my life with flashbacks. It’s as if I’m living all the hurt and pain from my past all over again. I wonder when it will subside. When will it stop? Will it ever stop? Will […]
AGAINST MY SOUL 