Tag: Low Self Esteem
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WHAT’S IT LIKE…
https://domestic-violence-memior-blog.comIm sitting at the edge of my bed around 8 a.m. I just returned home from my night shift position of twelve hours. My darn foot suddenly fell ill almost by itself, not quite. It’s called EDEMA. I am transposing to another “old lady” part of my life. Anyways…it’s swollen and is painful. One more…
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IT ALL STARTS SOMEWHERE
Allow me to give some insight of my childhood and what I can remember. My father was in the Air Force for 20 years. Thirteen of those years I experienced all that comes with a dysfunctional Air Force family. My memories are vague and few. My family moved to Colorado Springs. I recall the fear…
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NO SURPRISES HERE
do remember the moment #2 told me he didn’t think he could have children. He said he was unable. At the time, I was still ignorant of a lot of issues in life as well as we never used protection. So I thought I had no reason to believe he would lie about that. Of…
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MY RUPTURED BOUNDARIES…MY EXPOSED SOUL
I nevertheless labor through all I surrendered within myself for so many years. I know I must stop and acknowledge my behavior toward my cherished … MY RUPTURED BOUNDARIES…MY EXPOSED SOUL
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DO YOU REMEMBER ME
That’s probably what you would do since you can’t face how much of a MONSTER you are. Throwing this letter out is the coward thing to do. I would not expect anything else from you. It’s ok because this letter is for me.I am a grown 31 year old woman. I am a woman that…
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AM I JUST MISERABLE?
I never guessed about my ex-husbands’ remarks to me. Several times, each one declared while physically beating me, “I love fighting, and I’m just miserable.” My focus was always trying to get the beatings to stop. Today I challenge what my Triggers are in my marriage. Was I just exhausted and grumpy yesterday? I enjoyed…
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TRIGGERS (continued)
When I realize something triggered my soul it comes in many forms. I have this fear of abandonment. I really trust very few people in my world and that is difficult. I can begin a scenario in my head about anything if I feel I’m being lied to, cheated on, etc… if my husband takes…
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Moments of Irrelevance
Even though my life today lacks nothing. I’m the one who lacks emotionally. Someone close to me may not react in a way I think they should. When I notice this an overwhelming dark existence smothers me. I end up feeling irrelevant. Trauma I deal with today that happened in my childhood or the chapters…
AGAINST MY SOUL 