I nevertheless labor through all I surrendered within myself for so many years. I know I must stop and acknowledge my behavior toward my cherished …
MY RUPTURED BOUNDARIES…MY EXPOSED SOUL
Tag: Narcissism
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Husband#1
Husband#1 is not overlooked. I believe he could be assessed as the prep for Husband#2. Tragic to say although it’s truth. When I met this Mr. Wondernot I was 18. I see my justifications now for latching onto the first man who paid any attention to me. All the dysfunctional childhood incidents left me very […]
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DO YOU REMEMBER ME
That’s probably what you would do since you can’t face how much of a MONSTER you are. Throwing this letter out is the coward thing to do. I would not expect anything else from you. It’s ok because this letter is for me.I am a grown 31 year old woman. I am a woman that […]
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AM I JUST MISERABLE?
I never guessed about my ex-husbands’ remarks to me. Several times, each one declared while physically beating me, “I love fighting, and I’m just miserable.” My focus was always trying to get the beatings to stop. Today I challenge what my Triggers are in my marriage. Was I just exhausted and grumpy yesterday? I enjoyed […]
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Life’s Transitioning when its your parents
I have robbed my parents of raising a decent child. This went on through my premature adulthood. I did not recognize how my prosecutions and aftermaths affected my parents and siblings throughout the numerous years I wasn’t existing. I define living in a sense as being late for holiday gatherings, is pleaded to borrow money, […]
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TRIGGERS (continued)
When I realize something triggered my soul it comes in many forms. I have this fear of abandonment. I really trust very few people in my world and that is difficult. I can begin a scenario in my head about anything if I feel I’m being lied to, cheated on, etc… if my husband takes […]
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The Triggers
If I’d been asked in my early years if I believed people can be traumatized to various levels… Trauma that could impact a persons self identity, trauma that would be AGAINST MY SOUL; I’d said no. As with all things in life you really don’t know or understand anything until you have experienced it. Good […]
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Moments of Irrelevance
Even though my life today lacks nothing. I’m the one who lacks emotionally. Someone close to me may not react in a way I think they should. When I notice this an overwhelming dark existence smothers me. I end up feeling irrelevant. Trauma I deal with today that happened in my childhood or the chapters […]
AGAINST MY SOUL 