Tag: Narcissism
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WHAT’S IT LIKE…
https://domestic-violence-memior-blog.comIm sitting at the edge of my bed around 8 a.m. I just returned home from my night shift position of twelve hours. My darn foot suddenly fell ill almost by itself, not quite. It’s called EDEMA. I am transposing to another “old lady” part of my life. Anyways…it’s swollen and is painful. One more…
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IT ALL STARTS SOMEWHERE
Allow me to give some insight of my childhood and what I can remember. My father was in the Air Force for 20 years. Thirteen of those years I experienced all that comes with a dysfunctional Air Force family. My memories are vague and few. My family moved to Colorado Springs. I recall the fear…
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NO SURPRISES HERE
do remember the moment #2 told me he didn’t think he could have children. He said he was unable. At the time, I was still ignorant of a lot of issues in life as well as we never used protection. So I thought I had no reason to believe he would lie about that. Of…
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MY RUPTURED BOUNDARIES…MY EXPOSED SOUL
I nevertheless labor through all I surrendered within myself for so many years. I know I must stop and acknowledge my behavior toward my cherished … MY RUPTURED BOUNDARIES…MY EXPOSED SOUL
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Husband#1
Husband#1 is not overlooked. I believe he could be assessed as the prep for Husband#2. Tragic to say although it’s truth. When I met this Mr. Wondernot I was 18. I see my justifications now for latching onto the first man who paid any attention to me. All the dysfunctional childhood incidents left me very…
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DO YOU REMEMBER ME
That’s probably what you would do since you can’t face how much of a MONSTER you are. Throwing this letter out is the coward thing to do. I would not expect anything else from you. It’s ok because this letter is for me.I am a grown 31 year old woman. I am a woman that…
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AM I JUST MISERABLE?
I never guessed about my ex-husbands’ remarks to me. Several times, each one declared while physically beating me, “I love fighting, and I’m just miserable.” My focus was always trying to get the beatings to stop. Today I challenge what my Triggers are in my marriage. Was I just exhausted and grumpy yesterday? I enjoyed…
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Life’s Transitioning when its your parents
I have robbed my parents of raising a decent child. This went on through my premature adulthood. I did not recognize how my prosecutions and aftermaths affected my parents and siblings throughout the numerous years I wasn’t existing. I define living in a sense as being late for holiday gatherings, is pleaded to borrow money,…
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TRIGGERS (continued)
When I realize something triggered my soul it comes in many forms. I have this fear of abandonment. I really trust very few people in my world and that is difficult. I can begin a scenario in my head about anything if I feel I’m being lied to, cheated on, etc… if my husband takes…
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The Triggers
If I’d been asked in my early years if I believed people can be traumatized to various levels… Trauma that could impact a persons self identity, trauma that would be AGAINST MY SOUL; I’d said no. As with all things in life you really don’t know or understand anything until you have experienced it. Good…
AGAINST MY SOUL 